Wednesday, 25 February 2015

Not a poem or a prose. A jumble of words.

It's been several months, I feel like everything is a roller coaster.
I try and work, to feel better, be better. 
At times, I feel at the top of the world, ambitious and courageous.
Then there are days where I feel let down, so easily.
Self-esteem has been hard to gather and collect now.
I can't get over feeling damned and hurt.
Heartbreak is a cruel occurrence. 

I feel lonely. Wait, correction. I am lonely. 
Don't get me wrong, of course I have friends, very good ones.
But, deep down inside there is this sense of abandonment.
I crave to be loved again and held. Sadly, I do not even remember how it feels.
People say that time will do its thing.
I believe that nothing has happened. Time, you have not helped me.
Trust me, I am not giving up, but I am discouraged.
I need something that will show me light.