That feeling when you realise, that every guy you've dated, has someone else immediately afterwards or even during the relationship. It takes a toll on your self esteem and on your hopes to find someone else. You are insignificant to that person, they treat like everyone else, take you for granted, or lesser. They perceive you to behave as if nothing is a big deal and that the relationship has ended long back, so why fuss? Those relationships have affected and hurt me, which takes a very long time to recover from. I just don't want to be pushed to an extent, of what I have is just my tears